I have been pretty much unemployed since we got back from Africa in December. I really expected to have something good by April at the very latest. Yeah, that didn't work out so much. Thankfully I've had friends and family give me a crazy amount of help, and food stamps since July, and some luck with a few temp jobs here and there. I would honestly not have survived had it not been for Boulder Boulder, Mark at TGA, and now DR Photographics. While I'm not getting the hours or pay I really need at DR, it's better than nothing and keeping me afloat. I have no idea what I'd be doing without it.
Right now I'm excited to be able to apply to about 3-5 jobs a day (on my days off that is) and while they are simply admin jobs, again, it's better than nothing .And at the moment I have been out of my element for so long that I've completely lost sight as to what I even want to do as a career. I feel more and more passion toward health and fitness and the possibility of opening a Raw Food Cafe. However, I think it would be ideal to have an IT job that I've been looking forward to from my uncle that starts at 60k. That kind of money is far more than I need and would allow me to save up enough collateral for a solid small business loan within a few short years. And maybe a nice used car to boot.
But it doesn't seem like any of those IT jobs will ever come through. I think I look underqualified, despite the fact that I am so quick to learn I doubt I'd have any trouble catching on whatsoever. But we'll see. This Monday I have two interviews, one on the phone for a 30k-40k position, also fine enough to save up money (let's hope I qualify for the upper range of that). And the other I don't know if it is in person or on the phone, but it's only part time with the upper range I should definitely qualify for at $15/hr. Being part time means no saving money, but at least I can start paying back some people who have helped me. It may not be the happiest job for me, but I will take it with pride and gratuity.
I don't need much to survive. I have some pricey habits, but when I look at the rest of my friends or a lot of other people, I realize it's not really that bad.
I like my fine yarns for knitting, but have been successful in the past on Etsy to get at least the yarn cost back, which is all I really care about. It's been hard lately because places like Forever 21 sell scarves for like $2. But maybe some people will find me again and realize paying much more for quality goods is worth it. Hard in this economy though, even I'd rather pay the $2 than even make myself something custom. But I have been craving creating lately, so who knows, maybe the part time job is better for me to have more free time to do that.
And I have fallen in love with trail running. Though I almost have everything I need, the only other thing I've wanted is a wind jacket from REI. Buuuut I haven't been able to afford it of course. And now living in Colorado and really not wanting to give up running in the winter, I'm thinking about buying some winter running gear. But that means new $80 shoes, some $75 pants, layers of fucking shirts and jackets, probably a few pairs of $20-$40 socks. The list goes on, hats, gloves, garters, etc. So that's fun.
But it's like, why can't I just have a good enough job that when I go to Target, I can buy a $40 chair without wondering if I'll overdraft? Why can't I go get my hair cut regularly? Why can't I see something at the grocery store that I know Jake would like and get it without feeling guilty about it? I really don't have that many desires, but as of now, spending $2 on coffee seems superfluous and dangerous. How sad is that? All I want is to be able to go to a store and see a Patagonia shirt on clearance and think "Yeah, that's reasonable." Can I please just own one Patagonia shirt? Or a quality yoga mat for once? Or a Nalgene bottle? A decent phone case? I feel like I'm not asking for much. But then again, I could just be a first world brat whining about menial things.
My next post will be more positive, I promise.
I'd like to experiment with some raw recipes I've created and hope to post.
I'd like to knit more and sell on Etsy (starting to be a good time of the year)
I'd like to finally blog about my kitten Sir Benedict Cumberbatch, Duke of Meowchester (#dukeofmeowchester on Instagram)
And I want to talk about being a yearbook photographer and the odd things I've noticed about humans.