Upon turning around though, I started thinking about what good days felt like running and tried to instigate those feelings (unsuccessfully). And randomly I thought about if I was moving to Durango and doing "The Double" which I thought was a trail marathon Saturday (in October) and the next day a road half marathon. I thought, that's like an ultra. I want to do that one, no matter what, I can drive there. And boom, 8:50 miles all the way back.
I got "home" to Jake's parents and looked up the race. Damn. Both days are half marathons. Well that's no fun. But then I thought: October. Why not? That's 20ish weeks away, totally enough time to train for a marathon and therefore do a 50K. And that means I can find one closer to home probably. Went my search.
And voila. My dream. MOAB. I want to do a Moab race. I think I envisioned my first marathon to be Moab. But alas, my first ultra will be there.
Sounds BADASS. And easier than my marathon in terms of elevation profile. SWEET. That means i'll have more confidence doing it.
Training starts this coming Saturday, a week from today. I'm going to take a full week off of both crossfit and running because I feel borderline burnt out ALREADY. I've been so exhausted and stressed out due to work (or lack thereof). So I'm just going to have some me time and then start a typical 18 week training program for a marathon.
I'm reducing crossfit to 3 times a week, though as of now it's only improving my athleticism, so I'll have to deal with being tired with two-a-days sometimes. Toward the end, I might have to put my account on hold for a month and maybe even an additional month of recovery, but we'll cross that bridge when we get there.
I feel very excited and happy, but it also adds a bit more stress to my life knowing I've been barely hanging on as it is with my exhaustion. But I'm also terrified to stop or even slow down. Too much free time causes me to think about all the things out of my control and some things I falsely think are in my control. We'll see what happens when I actually write out my schedule on a calendar. I'm going to pencil in a full week off again somewhere in the middle and see how it goes.
So it goes.