And that brought me right back to desperation and wanting to know what the hell I should even be doing with myself. I feel like a worthwhile asset to any company, but apparently I'm either inexperienced because Master's degrees are applying to entry level jobs, or I'm "Overqualified" in that they think I won't stick around long enough to be worth it. Well, I'm applying, so I'll put out the effort as long as you need. I only wish they would contact my references like FIRST so they can hear first-hand that I would be amazing anywhere.
The problem is I don't know how to sell myself. I wish people would just RECOGNIZE my capabilities and potential instead of me figuring out how to sound like an egotistical jackass. I have no clue ever what to write about myself and I feel like at the age of 27 I've single-handedly accomplished nothing. I didn't do anything cool or worthwhile in school. I've only had crap simple jobs after graduating. And then I slacked for 6 months traveling around Africa and have been pretty much unemployed the entire time I've been back.
So I've decided on trying school again. I talked with a couple people in the academia world in Colorado and it pretty much feels like my only option at the moment. And I don't want to be a failure. I've wanted to be a forever student and obtain a few degrees. This time I'm going right back into Astrophysics and hopefully I'll find something that I want to do research in and then continue onto my PhD. We'll see how everything works out. I'm going to sit in on some classes, talk with some faculty and then apply by hopefully next fall but maybe earlier if it's possible.
And in the meantime I'm going to try to be a substitute teacher, taking the test for Mathematics. I actually took it once before but failed by 8 points which is like 2 or 3 questions. And it turns out Colorado has the highest test score requirement and had I taken the test in ANY other state, I would have passed. But I did that test without studying and without a graphing calculator which was required. I got a calculator on Craigslist for $10 and I think with that alone I'll pass, but I also bought a study guide and plan on selling it back to Amazon when I'm done with it.