And sometimes some really great things happen that make it a lot easier. The end of September I saw my life blow up just a little bit and it was a process to put it all back together. Without having a job, I probably couldn't have done it at all, but with financial stability, it only took a few months to really get things going again.
- My car. I really didn't know if I should spend money to fix it again and worry about the again after that and another after that. Or scrap it -- and that left the option of trading it for a new or used car at a dealership, or take it and sell it myself, finding a used car somewhere out there. After a lot of deciding, talking with people, and hearing the car salesman do his spiel, I decided to get a new car. Something I thought I would never do ever. But honestly, I think I was in the one weird place where it actually made the most sense of all the possibilities. So far? Incredibly happy.
With how dangerously close I was to thinking about suicide on a daily basis, I no longer could care any less what others may think of my decision to take a lower pay for what could be a terrible job but at my company, just isn't. It's a great job with great people and without it, I don't know if I would have made it much further. So yeah, happy. Grateful. Everything.